I seriously don't get him,at all,ZILCH!
Really,what's w painting the house when there's exactly 3 days left to Raya?
Like super really, if setakat paint the walls kat living room,alright jugak..
Ini tak, kene cat the WHOLE house,termasok ceiling2 sekalik..
The funny thing is,budak yang tak celebrate raya,dier suruh cat..
Grr~

Din went to school tadik for EIRP,sorry Shab...
I dunt think i can make it for tml's paper either,since most likely i would be going back to Msia..
& i dun think i would be sitting for Eng paper,since i would still not be in Spore..

But really, luckily i did help my dad these past 2 days of re-painting & everything since we got to talk about almost everything..
I got to know and see the other side of him..
He talked about his ever first love & it was just sweeeettttt....
When Fransisca was merajok-ed and everything, sanggup dok member tunggu depan blok, baling2 batu kat tingkap.. Selagik tingkap tak bukak, tak tido lahh bapak aku yg satu nie..
And yes, his first gf was a minah salleh(:
We talked,we shared opinions,we joked,we laughed & i know that he is one nice person..

We were busily painting the ceiling and everything while listening to music..
Biler keluar lagu Give it to me, we joget like maha..
Biler keluar lagu trance, we did moves like kekek..
Biler keluar lagu You are the music in me, he dedicated that song to mommy..
Biler keluar lagu Kekasih Gelapku, he gave me that odd look of his..
"Ku mencintaimu lebih dari yang apapun.. Meskipun tiada satu org pun yang tahu.. Ku mencintaimu sedalam2 hatiku.. Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku..''

After he heard that 4 lines, he said,'' I know that you had recently suffered a loss & for the record, i'm not talking about Deco/Nina... Dun't ask me how i know or dun't give me thaat type of maner - ader - seyy - looks.. I'm your dad,i know. I dun't quite approve of these types & im sure you know that too.. But, i had kept quiet all these while cuz i wanna know,i wanna see your reaction & your actions.. And daughter, i'm proud of you...

Biler keluar lagu Drama,love & 'Lationships by Babyface..
"It's not about who's right & who's wrong.. It's not about who's weaker & who's strong.. It's not about who's innocent and who's fault.."

He asked, " Do you miss him?''
My reply,'' Hmm...''
Him, " Hmm as in yeah,you miss him?
My reply, " Hmm as in i can't be bothered to layan you bapak!''
Him, " I know you miss him. And again,i'm saying this again, do not give me that look of yours.. I know you do.. And it just makes it a whole lot difficult when our families are close.. And, i'm sorry for that.. Really,i am.. If i know these would happen,i had long cincang2 him,since he had just messed up with my daughter.. But,just hang in there.. You're strong enough to face all these odds.. You're not like any other girls.. The one yg selalu sakit,yg selalu masok hospital, yang selalu pengsan/pitam, yang selalu muntah2.. You're not.. You're strong in your own way.. Your own quiet way.. You never say much.. You're always giving in.. You're always accepting things for what they are.. You never question why.. You never blamed others even when they/he is at wrong.. You just never dun't do stuff like any normal girls would do.. Im not saying that you're weird or abnormal.. But,at times, i just feel like shaking your head and knock some sense into you.. I seriously tak nak my daughter jadik mcm Ana dalam ceriter merapek tuu.. But whatever it is, how much i scream at you,how much i shout at you, how much i curse you & call you stupid, how much i layan you mcm nak tak nak,how much i always keep saying NO to you, it's not that i'm mean or whatsoever.. It's just that i'm scared of letting you go.. Call me coward or whatever you youngsters call it, but as a parent, i wouldnt want to see my daughter get hurt.. I wouldnt want to lose my daughter to the outside world cause you know why? Because,maner lagik nak dapat 1st mth punyer pay this coming Dec kalau bukan my first daughter kaaan... Ahaha.. Im joking.. But really, i wouldnt want to lose any of my children,especially you..
My reply, '' Jangan nak macam pa lahh bapak!''

~

O's coming like super fast mcm fly..
So,this might be my last update until 6th November aytes..


Salam sayang & rindu,
Lynlove(:

Written @ Thursday, October 11, 2007