O's is 22 days away and i can't seem to help it,but feel this waaaay):

You know,the way when you constantly,always think about questions but you don't know the answers.

It's not that you're dumb or what for not knowing the answers,but you know perfectly well where the answers can be found,at a certain page,in a certain book..

Talk about being silly laaah.. Like you can remember where the answers,which page,but you don't know the answers?

Seeee,i've repeated that sentence like twice.

& to make matter worse,sampai terbawak2 biler tidur-ey..

You dun't get enough sleep, you wake up in the wee hours,just to stare at the ceiling.

Why not revise? Because i can't,i simply can't.

Nak tidur-ey ponn tak boleh..

Whcih seriously means one thing,taking in medicine even if i'm not sick,just for the sake of waiting for drowsiness to come QUICK.. Shuckness!

I'm just super sick thinking of it.. What with teacher's teaching like super fast like as if there's no tml..

Dang,how i wish it can all be over asap but at the same time, i'm just not prepared):

Damn it!

Daddy & Mummy,

I haven't been the greatest daughter of all. I admit i rebel-led in my own quiet ways. I admit, i can just shut both ears & act dumb or seriously stupid like a flamingo,whatever you called it.

I know,you wanted your own daughter back,the old one,who always emerged as the 1st one in class in those early days. I still remembered what you say,daddy.. Really,i do.. It has been the one and only energy boost in studying for o's right now.. "I dun't know whatever happen to us,i dun't.. But,i miss my daughter who was always the brightest in class,the one who alwasy got 1st in class.. The one who always was proud of her good achievements.. I really want her back for this time round,i really do" - Daddy

Those sentence moved me like hell,daddy.. Really,it does. I too dun't know whatever happen to us.. Sometimes,i wonder,why now? Why not 6 mths before,when my morale was super low,when everything was just a dead end,when o's was like months months long? Why now,when there's another 22 more days to go? But daddy, whatever it is, i'll do my utmost best in preparing for o's. Dun't worry daddy,you'll get your daughter back. You'll get it back,i promise you... Mummy, i know you're one dearest bestest mummy who would never push her children too hard. You support everything i do,i like. I thank you for that. '' Tak payah buat aper2, just get good grades,i'm happy for you"-Mummy. I'm doing it,i'm getting good gardes,better than ever,cuz i want to see you smile,i want to see you be proud of me(:

Shabrina.

If ever my actions/words hurt you in any ways,i'm truly sorry. Really,i am..Good luck for o's.. Meeting you at TP kaaaan? I can't wait to see you then..

With that,the best of luck for o's aye...

Hehs(:

_Lynlove