At the end of the day, i really hope you know i still love you. I might not be there physically, but at the end of the day,i'm there.I'm screwed up,i really am. I dunt want to bring you guys down with me. She has screamed enough sense into me. I dun want to mensia-siakan tekak dier tu. I love all of you but i still cry at nightly. I love all of you but at times,i get so pissed off. I have to get away n i understand if u dun get it. I dun get it either sometimes,but tis is me. Im no longer the girl u guys noe. Ive changed ~Loving you always babes. Rmbr eh, 9 years down the road, we will meet each other at ROMM okays =)Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku
Ku tahu ku takkan selalu ada untukmu
Disaat engkau merindukan diriku
Ku tahu ku takkan bisa memberikanmu waktu
Yang panjang dalam hidupku~
It aches when i realised that it's not gonna be the same anymore. It hurts so bad that i can't even know how to describe it. I dun't know what when wrong,when it went wrong. I mean,if i were to have bionic eyes,laser mind & my flying cloak, i know,i would do my darndest fucking best to stop it. I would have save us,if there ever were us,in the first place. There's so much of,''i would'', that i know it's just, impossible.I wasn't stupid to cry when Alep left me; Kumbang bukan seekor.I wasn't stupid to cry when Abg Zam left me;I know,he went to a muchmuchmuch better place.I wasn't stupid to cry when Nina left me;I know,it was her decision.It was never mine.I wasn't stupid to cry when CL left me;I know,that was our only choice & it was the best solution,anyone could ever think of.I cried,now when i no longer see the girl i used to know. We used to be so tight before. Now? We're physically there,but i can never realy get to talk to you. Now? Awkward silence fill these huge gap between us. What makes me so sad,is that,whenever i see you, all i could & can see is a girl,so dead. I just already lost you,mate.You seem to act so jovial when you're with your mates, but it's just an act. Isn't it?I have and always been the girl who fears changes. I try my every best to stop it from happening. It just did & i really do not know how to adapt to it. Stuffs happened & i thought it made us stronger. I was wrong. I thought we would be tighter like how i am with Sha. I was wrong. I thought we would be there for each other more like how i am now with Izan & Nina. I was wrong.I really was never good with words. Even as i'm typing it out right now,it's like as if, i feel that i haven't made my point real clear & out loud. It's like as if i'm missing the essential ingredient,to simply make you understand,make you know. I failed~Tukar gambar babe, i just wanna see your face~_Lynlove
