In the middle of doing research for my art for tml..Hell,i know!
When i realised something.
It's super easy when you just chucked everything out.
It's easy when you act the way you are right now.
It's super easy when you just do what you do right now.
It's super easy when she isn't part of your life anymore.
It's super super easy when teaching & music are all what you have right now.
See how many ''super'' i used?
Because boy,i am trying my super hard to be super patient.
i am trying my super hard
to not break down infront of everyone.
i am trying my super super super hard
to assure myself that everything will turn out just fine when you are by my side.
But,you aren't.
I think i did my best
in keeping quiet about it.
I think i did my best
in not fretting or complaining it to my grls.
I think i did my best
in not asking you stupid questions like,''What's becoming of us?''
I think i did my best
to be the most patient-est gf ever.
I think i did my best
in being your special grl.
I think i did my best
in keeping it low.
I think i did my super best
in giving you ample time & space to think things through.
I think i did my darndest best
in defending you & telling them that we are going on strong & fine.
It has never been easy on my part.
But,you gotta understand.
I can't be like this for long.
WE can't be like this for long.
It has been 4 days we ain't on talking terms
& it IS driving me nuts.
I'm trying to control myself before everything comes out wrong.
Boy,can't you see that?
I need you now.
When i feel like i just want to drop dead & burn all those formulas & definitions & stupid peribahase & just shoved it into someone's toilet bowl.
When i feel like i ain't have the energy to continue studying.
When i feel like i just want to stop mugging & have REAL rest.
But boy,where are YOU?
I had officially let go of my chemistry paper.
But boy,where are YOU?
I am breaking under pressure.
But boy,where are YOU?
Is it all just in my head that you are disappearing into thin air?
But boy,where are YOU?
Is it all just in my head when names that i utter are either AJ,Sam or Khai?
But boy,where are YOU?
I need you RIGHT now.
Whatever happen to ''i-will-always-be-by-your-side-when-you-are-ready-to-pour-out-your-heart-girl''?
Boy,
Time is one thing.
Loyalty is another thang.
Let's just don't crush what we have right now.
Boy,
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
_yaNa_
