urhh,had a loong day today.. went to NYP & i shall not elaborate here.. =)
Finally, after 14 years of living, i WENT to town !!!... =) With my girlfriends & the 2 hunks,we roamed Orchard Road.. We dropped by to see Rogue & Co before heading off to our next destination-s..Okay urhh, i still didn't get the chance to get all the names right.. Kalau tak salah,we did go to the Paragon yg the toilets were superb COOL, Heerens, Far East Plaza & yang lain sume ku tak ingat.. Sorry! It was super duper great going out with my girlfriends.. There was nothing but just laughter,laughter & more laughter! Pics would be available at Nai's multiply..
& i might just want to drop by at City Hall with the same people.. *winks winks*
She's in a confused state right now.It had happened 2 years ago but why still talk about it. Maybe the thing that irked her the most was the fact that both of them had happened to be the 2 closest people on earth at that time. She is to blame for all the wrong things she had done. But to the extend of punishing him too? It's true then.. What he said.. It doesn't make sense at all. It is just a misunderstanding. But,if it is simply just thaat simple, why can't she then possibly forget everything & act as per normal...?
"Hey girl.. It has been a long time since i last saw you smile.. You hang in there aye..'' - Her
I hardly smile nowadays urhh..Ahaha.. I dun't see the need to smile when all im facing right now is nothing but bullshit & crap. He used to make me smile then but where is he right now? Still not on talking terms,thanks to Liyana! I simply do not have the energy to smile or to laugh.. I simply do not have the energy to bring myself up to forgive myself. I simply do not have the energy to bring myself up to face him.
Berok. I do not miss talking to you.. I do not miss msging you. & she lied.
I'm sorry for becoming like this.I 'm sorry for not being able to give an explanation when you had demanded one. I'm sorry but i cannot possibly forget the whole drama just like that. I'm sorry if i had cursed & screamed at you the other night. I'm sorry but i can't seemed to msg-ed you these past few days. I just need to clear my head,for once. I can't possibly do that when i think of you & her 24/7. I can't possibly do that when it keeps haunting me every now and then. I can't possibly do that when it keeps rewinding up in my head every minute. That's what i see,what i hear. Every minute in every hour,you & her. It can bloodily drive me nuts but i shall stay strong & persevere. It can bloodily make me go crazy but i shall hang in there.
If ever,my actions are hurting you,it hurts me too. If ever,my words are killing you,it kills me too. So,dun't ever claimed that i am one selfish brat since you dun't know what hell i am going through. If ever,i could just rewind back, i know i would delete you from my life since you are too good to be true.
I can't possibly blame you & her. It just doesn't seem right. What with him,blaming me for the way things are going right now. & i thought it was the right thing to do. I can never do things right,i realised. It's either i screwed it big time or i screwed it big time.
So,people. Diss me all you want since it happens to be my f*cking fault that he isn't talking to me,that she is feeling super duper guilty & him blaming me. As usual, she had screwed things up BIG TIME!
_yaNadarlZ_
Written @ Monday, March 12, 2007
WELCOME
I've put in my utmost best in it
But,my best wasn't your best
Really, I din regret any of it
Cuz i know, my special one is out there
_Lynlove
The Dream Keeper
Lynlove(:
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LTG my thang
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