It's the time of the month when i feel super duper fuber down..
When every little mistakes i made,regardless if it concerns a-math or there isn't any tissues left in my bag or getting cursing & getting the blame from one of your closest sister,can make me cry..
When everywhere i go,i see him*..
When everywhere i go,i heard him*..
When my mind is playing tricks on me again
It's like as if im hallucinating but then,i thought of the otherwise..
Im disappointed when i failed to NOT mix both personal stuff & my studies..
I forgot all the formulas..
I didn't even know how to do the 3M when i myself had succeeded in teaching that to Mat & Fi..
For god's sake, the numbers didn't match. The signs didn't click. The answers seems wrong.
I turned left,saw Mat doing his sums.. I turned right,Sarip doing her sums.
I looked at my own paper.
When i saw the numbers not making sense to me, i realised the better of it & just continue scribbling numbers with negative signs even if i know it's wrong..
Another realisation hit me like a bullet thru my head.
If this goes on, i wun't be able to do ANYthing right..
& heck, it's my o levels we are talking about right now..!
Whatever happened to us,i wonder.
We used to tell each other anything to everything..
There used to be no secrets between us,even if we have our own bestfriends..
We used to click just like that..
We could share secrets & stories & we could just talk all day long..
Whatever happened to that?
Whatever happened to the times when i know i had your back,you had mine?
Whatever happened to the times when we could share secrets like we own the bloody world?
Whatever happened to the time when we joke about the mats & minahs reps international?
Whatever happened to that?
You claimed that we were never your true friends..
How can we be one when all you do is just keep your secrets/problems to yourself?
How can we help you in any ways when all you do is just shut us out from your life?
How can we even be there for you when you rarely talk about it?
When you keep saying,'' nah,takder pape2..''
Girl,we have your best interests..
We want to be there for you when you need us.
We want to share your joys and sorrows & your problems even if we always criticise you..
We want to simply help you ..
You used to be my rapat-est friend before she came along..
Even if i rarely talk to you,which i doubt so..
I still care for you.
It hurts me when he did that to you..
It hurts me when i see you like this..
When all i could see is shats,shats,shats & nothing but shats..
People make mistakes.
This morning's incident..
I know it was a mistake..
Mine,i guess for not being able to answer all your questions..
Mine,i guess for not being able to give satisfactory answers to you..
Mine,i guess for acting dumb when i know parts & pieces of it..
I'm sorry,girl.
If i know you were leaving, I know i would have send you a proper farewell.._yaNadarlZ_
