Exactly 9 months to o levels. & ii can surely tell you that these MAJOR examinations is giving us the creeps. What with teachers constantly reminding us about it becoming nearer & nearer to Mrs Kok visiting the graduation classes to give pieces of advise to those admin work regarding the o's to my dad who out of the sudden ask,'' can you cope or not???'' and ii simply said, ''urh''
ii wonder,what would happen if i say,'' I takleh cope urh.Stressful! feel like dying~''
Hohoho... Conperm dier lagiik stress darik aku. HEHS!
But still,it is the truth lahs... 9 months bukannyer lame sangat... Somehow somewhere,dah nga dudok kat dlm hall,waiting for THE results.. Freaky-ness but it is GONNA happen soon~
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I dun't know why but i had felt a sense of belonging,a sense of feeling secure & surely a sense of being *ehem* whenever i had msg-ed him.
I feel like he is as if filling this B-I-G gap in my life after my baby boy left me.
But then,i start to think of the otherwise.
So,after much thought. I have decided that. I simply want to remain friends with that particular someone. I dun't know how long i can mengecapi kebahagian yang beliau beri. I am sure that i won't be able to pick myself up again after he ever leaves me which he would do in the later part of my life.
So,as to say,I prefer being single. Lonely,yes! but with my wackiest ghurlls, nothing can ever go wrong. Nina's hyper laugh mode,Shab's constant sindiran,Sha's constant ''what the hell'',eezan's constant superb horny attitude,rogue's constant cute laugh and that su-weet smile & heera's constant fantabulous personality that will always cheer my day up whenever im with her..
ii have this fabulous 6 girls whom i treasure and loved dearly,im sure that i dun't need him in my life. Friends,yes! but not more than that~..
I am sure he wouldn't want to suffer if he ever be with me..
He would say,'' Kita belum lagi cuba...''
But, i dun't think i would like to take the risk of break-ing up my heart again. Once by my baby boy,it's enough to leave me weak,spent,exhausted & anything that is similar to it.
FFILA~
I am truly sorry for doing things that will hurt you deeply.
But i know,this IS for our own good,yours & mine.
I can't be with you when a part of me had died about 2 months ago.
I won't be able to give you my fullest attention.
I know that you will once meet a new girl someday.
Who will love you deeply,will cared for you deeply.
I am sorry as i'm not the old Lyn.
I loved it when you speak in malay,it's as if you sound sincere.
I loved it when you called me Lyn,as it will always make me smile without fail.
I loved it when you cared for me,like as if i'm your baby girl.
But,things have changed.
I am sorry~
Lyn
_yaNadarlZ_
