ii hate the way ii am feeling right now...and the feeling ii am goiing to feel for the upcoming days... what the hell... what iif .. what iif.. what iif.. what iif.. what iif.. liike there iisnt enough of the what iifs' in thiis world..who seems so perfect but yet..
''eu faiil ur eng duriing mid yr kan?..whiich means iif eu faiil now,eu kena retaiin ah niie..?'' Thanks alot lah ehks father for makiing my day more purrfect.. then ii realiised eu n0oe..the realiity of faiiliing my total percentage..and as a result ..beiing retained~ ii am becomiing more not to liike that word..seriiusly,just iimagiine miie beiing with the sec 2 thiis yr..???..liike habibah n her gang is okay lah...but wiith the Lana ghurll and the other ghurlls whom ii quiite n0ot liike..?iits liike unforgivable !!!!!!
What the hell...! For now,already confirmed that ii would passed both my malay & my art..Thank god!ii dunt reallie knoow how ii do iin both of my sciiences...ii seriiusly have no iidea...whether ii can actually passed both my chem and my phy..My history...confirm hancor...iif there iis a miracle,then ii might simply just passed that subject...just passed!kalau dah overall add,then ii wud agaiin faiil my hiistory siince ii failed that bloody subj duriing miid yr..and ii thought that ii am good iin hiistory...~so..literally,what choiice do ii have..how many subj can ii pass?..ii need 5 subj to pass iif my eng fails..where can ii get another bloody 3 passed subjects?.math?..combined sci?..combined humanities?..haish!!~!
''kalau ii faiil,iim furtheriing my studiies kat johor tau syg...'' how ii triied to comfort her wiith my words...ii know..that she has thiis chance of retaiining..ii am unsure of my results,of myself...how can ii assure others? the thought scares miie but when that day actually arrived..iit miight be worse than ii thought...ii might be the few who would be retained...ii miight be the few who might be the ones where my form teacher would fiight for my riight to be in sec 4 next year...and do ii bloody deserve that chance?,ii wonder..
iif ii were to be retaiined,where would ii go..would ii stiill be iin wrs?..iim makiing my loved ones worried for miie..my atuk who iis goiin for an operatiion next week..after ii receiived my results..argh!..
ii just hope and wiish that ii can just go up one level...even though,aku just passed by 0.0000001%,aku stil nak naiik..lets just hope people~
_yaNadarlZ_
Written @ Monday, October 16, 2006
WELCOME
I've put in my utmost best in it
But,my best wasn't your best
Really, I din regret any of it
Cuz i know, my special one is out there
_Lynlove
The Dream Keeper
Lynlove(:
Atin's uncle is LOVE<3
LTG my thang
Sweet 6teeeen on IC
Waiting for results;
