im flunkin every tests.which is such a change fer mie..not dat im proud of..sheesh~!
im such in a dunt-mess-with-me attitude which ii so hated it..shucks~!
ii juz wanna be de old happy-go lucky ghurll..can..
budden how..when im in problems..problems..problems..
ii
ADMIT its ma fault kiez...for like ending the frenship..wad do eu expect mie to do?..ii have been doing that since ii can remember the last time ii remember..which is..erm..harun..yesh.with him...then it was with khai..yus..romeo...and
the list goes on..mind eu...den mike...till recently apit..erm..so eu pple shud try to understand ma situation here...ii hav been running since like so far back..and eu uys are like condemning mie fer a deed ii did to him..haloo?!..do eu guys even listen to mie?..if he is de ferst guy ii run from tu takper lar...ii guess her might be de 14-th guy im running away from...mind you~!..it is dat damn hard..n eu guys actuallie accuse mie of wad..erm..not appreciating his syg towards mie...im de ferst to appreciate dat..juz dat..things are not going de way as eu guys have expected..like eu noe..dey stead..loving couples...fight..play timer..break..
ii
ADMIT it is all ma fault..but reallie..cant eu understand mie...dat though ii nid a guy beside mie..i am not rushing to find one...ii wanna take my time...mingle with my large circle of frenz..dat special somewan?..can ii just think of that after my 0's?..im happy oreadie with my frenz..
heera..sha..katy..shab..rogue..nina..izan..mas..though there are problems here and der...dey still play a part in ma life..they were de ones who make mie laugh..smile..mad..cry..fer
2 years,3 months,8 days..they are everything to mie..ma life..ma soul..ma everything..and nothing can really change that fact..thought it hurts..ii dunt reallie nid any special somewan right now..im having alot of problems ryte now..both family and skewl..ii am so afraid ii dunt rellie have de time to layan dat special somewan specially..its best if we become frenz ferst and not put any pressure on ma shoulders..cuz to tell eu guys de truth..ii dunt noe how much ii can take it..its like as if de burden of those problems are on your shoulders and those expectations eu have to achieve..ur dad's, mum,relatives,uncle,aunties,kuzzies expectations of eu to bcum de ferst in class in every test..every exam..every obstacles eu face in de world...day by day..de problems ii faced...both financially,skewl,studies,family,''him''..de mixed emotions ii have every day..to either like end it all just like dat..or to still continue hoping that de next day would be fine..would be much better..but it didnt..it became worse and worse..how muxh do ii have to suffer...how many more pple do ii have to drgged dem with mie with all ma problems...itz enough fer mie to drag
sha..heera..katy..nina..mas..izan..rogue..shab with mie..im nt dragging eu with mie apit ~!..its better if eu move on without mie..ii reallie dunnoe wen my strong inner self gonna hold..it might juz break one day..poofh~!..and im gone..just like that..
ii might be ouh kay with eu pple..but reallie lar pple..im up to ma wits end..w/o de support frm ma dad...who just wanna control ma life nd order mie around..ii have a life too you know ~!..ii cant just cooped up in dat house of mine for de rest day of ma life..its fine with mie if eu wann keep mie in de house fer dis 14 yrs of mine..but der wud be dis one day..ii wud be so rebellious dat ii dunt even care fer ma sick bro..dis is neither blackmailing or threatening..
ii guess im writing too much here...ii shud go fer now..take care eu pple..
/*im truly sorie fer wad ii did..if ii hav de power to turn back time..ii wud neva end it..
